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Saturday, January 14, 2006
Well ... Let's start of with school. Sciece is a bitch. I have a C cus I don't turn in my assignments. I would if I could find my book around my house.. blah. Other than that .. I have a lotta B's. Bleh. I really wanted to strid for A's too .. Maybe my final grades with raise them?? I doubt it though, but I'm still in hope. Finals .. There's so much review! Ah! That big ol science review that we have to do. I mean .. we don't have to do it .. but it adds on 10% to our final grade and I need to review for science anyways. Oh and that ws that we have to fill out on all our labs .. so much. In cole we have those 140 flashcards to do.. I'm only on #90. Latin .. oh geez. I keep putting that studying aside. I need to study for that class though. English final I'm no so worried about cus San Juan's letting us use our whole notebook .. that's a good thing to hear. What I am worried about though is my final product for the all quiet on the western front. I mean yeah I've practically done all the summaries .. but like .. I need to rewrite them cus I bee essed them most of them. Oh gawsh. I really don't want to be failing cus I have a boyfriend. I promised myself that I wouldn't. I hope I can keep it. That can be my New Year's Revolution now: Not to slack off in school now that I have a boyfriend or I mean like .. balance boyfriend and school. yeaap. THe Boyfriend =) <3 keeper ="D" need =")have to go n decorate and go n make posters or anything. k .. off to hw I do, whoopdideee.. silent_star | 1/14/2006 05:46:00 PM Friday, November 25, 2005
Well, it's 10:18 a.m. and I've been awake for 2 hours ( yes, that's 8:00) I must be crazy to wake up at 8:00 a.m. on a break ..but hey, I had a weird dream and couldn't get back to sleep. I figured I should update this thing since it's been awhile. Well, as everyone knows by now, Paul and I are going out :) Gawsh I'm so happy with him. Our date is 11.18.05. Heck yes. And we had our first, official date already. Yeup, just him and I :) Gawsh, I can never stop thinking about him. All everyone needs to know is that him and I are doing great and I couldn't ask for anyone better .. no one needs to know the details between us =X What else? Oh yeah, winterball. Everyone's gonna look so nice. I can't wait though! It's like playing dress up .. you put on a dress, put your hair all nice, maybe add a touch of make up, and then off to the ball. What fun this is gonna be. And with my wonderful date by my side, I can't wait. He has a tournament on that day though .. but he said he's gonna cancel .. that's really sweet of him .. but he doesn't have to though. Bradley's back!!! W00p w00p!! I realllyy hope I can see him today. But iono if I have a ride =\ cus my sister has work, my dad says I'm grounded ( but really, I'm not cus my mom said I can go) and my mom has work. duummbb. I really hope I'll be able to make it. We'll see. And I'm trying to work something out so that I'll be able to see my boyfriend and go to the party .. but ion thin it'll work:( and of course I'll pick the party to go to cus I do have priorities and Brad's party was my first for like .. 2 months, haha, yeah, I've been wating for this party for awhile. Jimmy matters .. all I'm gonna say is that ion think things are getting any better. Whatever. ManI miss my boyfriend.. Ummm .. ion think anything else is going on in my life .. Byee! silent_star | 11/25/2005 10:17:00 AM Monday, November 14, 2005
Guess who just got asked out to Winterball!.... Why Jessica Petalio did of course :D By who you might be wondering?? =O By Paul Aldapa silly :D ________________________________________________________________________________________________ Hooray! Yay for winterball! I didn't go last year cus of some things .. but this year is different. I'm so excited! And then Paul's birthday party! W00t w00t! I've never been paintballing before! I can't wait :) A lot of things are happening this week .... Weldon's bday, Paul's bday, Paul's bday party, Harry Potter the movie comes out, TOC, and some other stuff =X :) Ah! my week is jam packed! But it's good things though. Except for the many tests I have to take this week. Oh well. I gotta go! later! silent_star | 11/14/2005 10:17:00 PM Sunday, November 13, 2005
No. I said I want to make up with you first THEN you got moody towards me and started saying crap and THEN I said I don't want to deal with you anymore. I meant I don't want to deal with you if you're gonna be acting like the way you've been acting, when you stop, then come talk to me. Soo ..get it right. What I was tring to do these past few months was let you work this out with yourself. I wanted you to deal with this on your own b/c it wasn't something that could be settled between you n I. You needed get over me, and could I help you with that? no. that's what I was waiting for, for you to get over me and stop being so depressed. And yes, I don't like predicting the future, but the way things are between us now, I see no future with us in it anymore. All we do now is argue and fight and things won't be the same if we go back out. You've changed and hey, maybe I've changed too point being: we're not the same anymore. I'm sorry I'm shutting you down like this, but hey, as they say the truth hurts .. but at least I'm telling you the truth though. When you feel like making up and being friends again and only friends then hey, I'm all for it. I hate contoversy and tension and fighting between us or between anyone. Anyways..if I didn't have all of this to worry about, my life would be going great. I'm not trying to say that I want him out of my life period and that I'm going to forget about him b/c doing that would make my life great. No, what I'm trying to say is that if we were friends again and everything was going great with Jimmy n I, then my life would be great. I wouldn't have anything to worry about in life cus I"m not complaining with life besides Jimmy n I, but I don't wanna make my life better by forgetting b/c by making up with Jimmy, my life would be better. I'm done .. I wanna eat, later. silent_star | 11/13/2005 01:56:00 PM Saturday, November 12, 2005
Grr .. stupid Vintage. Results: 1st marching. 3rd colorguard. Nothing for drumline. 3rd Drum Major [Go Alex] I'm so mad at our results! We did HECKA good in colorguard. Our ending toss was PERFECT .. you can't get any perfect than what we did. We all caught at the same time, no drops. Gahh! I'm so mad. And we were .5th of a point on getting 2nd. POINT 5Th. And drumline! .. what the hell. We didn't even get a trophy. We got 6th out of 19 .. but still no trophy! DUH Jesses Bethel and Fairfield are gonna get 1st and sweepstakes .. take them out of placing so that it can be a fair competition. Whateeever. So anyways .. I went up for honorguard [the people who go up to recieve the trophy] OH GAWSH. Never again. Standing there in the heat sun like .. tanned my face and only my face cus I had to wear that stupid band uniform and not my guard one. That band uniform gets so hot in there it's so disgusting. Everything that I strives for these past 2,3 weeks were all for nothing. I worked my ass of in drumline, and what do I get? .. I get lost in the music in competition, didn't know where mydits were, missed my dots.Whatever. I'm done with this subject. My whole day was tiring and tedious and stupid. People argue with me, give me a hard time when I've already had a hard time and was tired, and didn't really recognize that I was tired as heck. Did they really think that me performing in drumline, then switch to colorguard, then put away percussion equipment, then change into that STUPID uniform, then field show, then honor guard that I was gonna be hyper and crap .. hell. no. And then! getting shut down by our placement. Yeah .. today sucked. Oh yeah .. then I come to my blog where theres even MORE arguing with Jimmy and Josh and I on that stupid chatbox. I think I"ll just delete that chatbox. Well anyways .. movies is tonight with Paul, KT, and some other people. iono if I'll go though just cus I'm uber tired from the review. We'll see. I got hollered at at the review by these asians, it was hilarious. ---hahaha. So that was my day today and what's going to become of it. I'm going, later. silent_star | 11/12/2005 06:10:00 PM Friday, November 11, 2005
Grr! Stupid Jimmy! If all you're gonna do is argue with me back and forth about something that is already over and done with on my chatbox, tell me to shut the fuck up, and then make fun of me.. then don't come to my blog anymore. Don't read my posts because I don't want you to, I'm not saying that you won't, I'm just saying that I don't want to you to come and read my blogs if all you're ever gonna do is just argue with me about stupid stuff that's waay done with. Stop arguing and dealing with stuff about the past. I don't want anything to do with you anymore. Like, I really don't. I'm trying to really be nice, trying to understand you and see your side now, and I really want to make up .. but now, all you ever do is tell me to shut the fuck up and quote me till there's no tomorrow because "they're good come backs" Gawsh .. the NERVE of you to say that. I bet you feel all high and mighty now that you're emotionally stable .. or if you really wanna call that stable.. and can talk to me like you do now, huh? Well good for you. Whatever makes you happy Jimmy Toor. And when I said I don't want anything to do with you anymore, I never said that I'm going to forget you or the relationship that we had, I would never. I'm not that heartless as you think I am now. When you're ready to come to your senses, then talk to me, cus I've come to mine already. Gawsh .. enough of that. Anyways .. today was the game. We lost yeah. Kinda badly, but whatever. I had a REALLY good time hanging out with the guard in the stands and my performance, both of them, went alright. It was just alright, it wasn't bad or great .. it was alright. I went to watch our game after our performance, I only went to see everyone there ;) I knew we would lose, so I wasn't suprised by our score. Anyways. band review is tomomrrow .. so what the hell am I still doing up? well .. I'm talking to someone that why ;) night! silent_star | 11/11/2005 10:54:00 PM Thursday, November 10, 2005
Gawsh .. that's been in my head all day.. Well anyways.. so today I stayed at school for 12 hours. Yeah, Till 7:30.. marching. How friggn gay is that? Doing stupid drill. And then all of that time was spent arguing with the flags. Yeah .. DUMB. We're suppose to warm up as a guard .. do we ever? No. And we're suppose to have work the same as the whole guard [besides letters] do we in the drill? No. That's dumb. And when I asked for help on the flag routine cus I just wanted to see their work so I can get somewhat of an idea for what the rifles work is gonna be ... all I got was yelling because Kristy didn't know the work either and blah blah blah. So I tried to get the same work as the flags .. but no. So in the end, Lindsey and I decided our routine for the whole drill .. it's gonna look weird because we don't have the same work as the flags .. but ion really think it's our fault cus we tried but we just got shut down. Another thing about "shut down" .. the flags and everyone in the colorguard in general would not shut up. They kept yelling like they had the whole damn field to themselves, I told them to be quiet to be respectful towards the band cus they need the practice too ... but them bitches had to yell at me saying "No, they were being disrespectful towards us and we're trying to learn stuff too" I mean .. grow up and sto arguing in the guard PLEASE. Wow .. that paragraph was long. Geez .. during marching band today I was really hyper .. dunno why.. I just was. Iono .. I hoped it kept a good spirit for the guard though. I still don't know that one part of the routine. What.ever. Anyways.. So Vintage is this week yeah? .. Yeah.. That sucks. It doesn't even feel like a band review week ...just cus we've been practicing on stupid drill for so long [which is stupid b/c it's not like the audience ever watches the band anyways] I know the guard isn't ready either .. mentally + physically .. sucks! Whatever .. I could care less on what place we get ... all I'm focused on is drumline. I've worked so hard for that drill .. I really hope we place this year. Ok, so enough about band. Ewl, I'm such a geek. What else? School? School's going alright for me. I had 2 A's and the rest were B's last quarter .. so this quarter I gotta be better than my last grades .. and then the next quarter better than that, and then you get the idea. I sware I have so much hw .. psh, and I thought freshmen year was hard .. CUH! Powderpuff football!! Great .. now our sophomore team has become a freshmore team. EWL. haha, but there's only like .. 3 girls, it's all good I guess. I can't wait till powderpuff games! I'm so excited! I wonder what I'll play .... Whatelse? Jimmy? Sure. Well umm yeah. Gawsh .. he just had to leave that stuff in my chatbox where it's gonna be there forever for everyone to see. I mean whatever .. not like he doesn't want anyone to see how he feels. I mean .. he does have a blog about how he feels and he's not hiding it one bit .. in fact he's exposing, flaunting, whatever you wanna call it. Psh .. OK. But anyways .. well, iono. Right now, I think I'm willing to make up with him .. cus now ion care if he comes to his senses or not and realizes that there is no chance I am willing to go back out with him. Ion mean to give him a total shut down n all .. but he has to realize it sooner or later. I just wanna relieve the tension we have with each other so I could live my life and ya know move on to other guys with out having tension with my any of my exes. So yeah. Well, it's bout to be 1:00 am and it's time for me to take a midnight snack. Night! silent_star | 11/10/2005 12:24:00 AM |
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